I Eat Fear

As I incorporate big changes into my writing/speaking/creating/teaching/cultural-spelunking/global-niche life and prepare to take some delightfully serious risks, I’ve been doing a good bit of thinking about change and fear and going for dreams and building and deconstructing and all that good stuff. I knew that by eliminating Writerhead Wednesday from my weekly blog lineup, I’d lose some followers here, but yeesh, I wasn’t ready for the flurry of unsubscribes that would result. Yesterday, as the unsubscribe notices littered my mailbox, I got scared. Super-duper cowering-in-a-corner-behind-a-curtain scared. Scared that I was making a mistake by ending (at least here on the blog) Writerhead Wednesday. Scared that I couldn’t/wouldn’t achieve my vision. Scared of failure. Scared of, well, all kinds of ridiculous crap.

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I got so scared, in fact, that I almost…almost…did a knee-jerk turnaround by reinstating the structured blog post lineup. I almost…almost…got on all the social media channels and yelled, “Wait, wait, don’t go! I’ll bring Writerhead Wednesday back!”

But then, I was reminded of the great wisdom imparted by Neil Gaiman:

…I hope you will have a wonderful year, that you’ll dream dangerously and outrageously, that you’ll make something that didn’t exist before you made it, that you will be loved and that you will be liked, and that you will have people to love and to like in return. And, most importantly (because I think there should be more kindness and more wisdom in the world right now), that you will, when you need to be, be wise, and that you will always be kind.

And for this year, my wish for each of us is small and very simple.

And it’s this.

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.

So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.

Make your mistakes, next year and forever.

~Neil Gaiman

So I got centered, remembered why I’m doing this, mustered my mojo, and came up with yet another new anthem for 2013:

I EAT FEAR!

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Happy Thursday, folks! See you tomorrow.

 

10 Responses to I Eat Fear

  1. I sure love the pictures!

    I couldn’t have read this at a better moment. I am sitting in my chair, staring at my computer, completely paralyzed by fear. I have SO MANY ideas for the new year. So many promises I have made to myself. So many lists of things I want to change, start, finish. I haven’t done anything. My brain has gone numb. I am frozen. I am in some kind of holding pattern and overwhelmed.

    This gave me a kick in the pants. It’s time to light some fires, make some mistakes, defrost so to speak and get going. I already have the ideas, the plans and THE LISTS! There is nothing stopping me, but fear. I need to eat fear too.

    Thanks for reminding me that I have already created the door. All I need to do now is open it and walk through. It’s 2013. It’s going to be epic!

  2. I so love your new anthem I may just steal it…but only as a big note on our wall, to remind us how we live our crazy life. It’s now clear that must be how we’ve survived all these years! Thanks for the Neil Gaiman wisdom too – in fact, it all needs to be posted somewhere to be read daily. Bring it on, 2013!

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  4. Oh, Neil Gaiman. I wish I could fall in love with him as other people have. I just don’t understand the appeal.

    Aside from that, I’m sorry you got bombarded with unsubscribes. I hope those people eventually come back. (((Hugs)))

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  6. Sign me up! I’m shaking over here in my own writing corner and could use a boost. And a snarling beast. Those are good, too.

  7. This was and is inspired. Thank you. I have big goals for 2013, but they’re not insane, just daring. Gaiman’s wish is wisdom. I will be adding fear to my diet, making a healthy dose part of my daily recommended allowance.